Friday, February 5, 2016
Some Truths About Keeping A Diary
Quote of the day:
The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another; and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume as it is with what he vowed to make it. -James M. Barrie
I came across some of my old diary entries recently, written many years ago. This of course was before this blog came to be. I recognized my handwriting and the words inked deep into the skin of the soft delicate pages, as if peeling off layers and layers of clothing only to find intricate tattoos underneath. I should add that some of these entries ring a bell, but with others I can neither make head nor tail of their underlying meanings. If I were to jump inside a time machine though, I'm sure I'll find that at that point in time, in that very moment, my emotions must have mattered so much, and my conviction to record it all even more so.
Write down your thoughts, for many years from now you'll read them and marvel at your own capability. In October 2005, I noted: 'The rain is falling in torrents, it seems the clouds had held back tears all morning because by mid-afternoon, they had turned a darkish grey. I am sprawled on the couch - with the TV volume at the loudest.'
Of course I don't seem to have any recollection of this entry. I try to imagine a younger version of me listening to the rain, or watching from my window, raindrops crashing against it and rolling off one after the other. But the picture is all vague and obscure - like a murky mirror that has stopped reflecting, or a photo that's all blurry. I realize that I cannot feel now as I felt then. How special it must have been to witness such weather, enough to dedicate a diary entry to. But its all part of history now - my history.
I find keeping a journal, or a blog, or video log (Vlog) -which is basically blogging with video significant. Although some may disagree about these mediums being classified as diaries or journals, but they are definitely the modern way of story-telling. Whether you wish to share this story with others will come into play eventually, but this is yours and no one can take it away from you. For me, keeping diaries back then was therapeutic, and got me through difficult periods, helped me to improve my writing skills, understand myself better and also left a gift for the future me -which I am now sharing with you. The world is unpredictable, but there will always be the comfort of writing our own stories, one page, post, and video at a time.
Current Listen: Gotye -Eyes Wide Open